friends with money

   

i had a bath when there was nobody in this house and thought of a lot of things
such as what i'd love to do most in the future
desire to do so many things
am so curious about what i haven't experienced
and that is the problem i have now

while watching a movie which title is 'friends with money' just recognize what i wanna do at this moment and later but forget totally what it is
how embarrassing!

there are a lot of jobs which i wanna try once at least
i just can't pick one
well it won't be my option ever though

while having a bath, read a book of noshin or rushin?
don't know how to spell his name in english
anyway he wrote 'aQjungjun' (also don't know that name in english)
it gave me more thoughts

i'm just yelling myself
"don't bullying me anymore"

well.. in the movie which i saw the other day, the main actor's mother said to her daughter "please listen to some normal songs" and then her daughther said "what is a normal song? what is normal on earth? there's no normal thing."
they are not exactly what they had because the conversation was reconstructed in my brain but anyway it was something like that.

one more thing i'd like to add  is her mother's saying just before entering her porch. "listen to Very Normal's song! that is just normal one"

many people have been thought about 'what is normal and abnormal'
of course there might be no acceptable answer everybody could agree in my guess

by the way, i have a question.
do u like to live in an apartment?
well i don't live in it, this is also that kind of place and can't like being in it
if there is no one in the house, i am being kind of sensitive
should pay attention to all sounds
i mean quite tense i am
could possibly hear someone flushing in his/her toilet and also know a man entering his/her house.

i know i'm morbidly sensitive at this right moment
i guess it's because of the movie 'friends with money' i'm watching
never mind

Ooooops
i don't feel keep going by the way
crazy
obviously gonna regret